Nick Cannon Defends Decision To Return To Work Soon After His Baby's Death

Nick Cannon has defended his decision to return to work immediately after the death of his 5-month-old baby. His youngest son with Alyssa Scott, Zen, died from a brain tumor earlier this week.

In the opening monologue on Wednesday's episode of "The Nick Cannon Show," the TV personality thanked his fans for their support and explained why he opted to get back to work so soon.

"A lot of people keep asking me like, 'Man why are you even at work?' Especially my family members, 'Boy you need to go sit down somewhere, you got too many jobs already. Allow yourself to just be yourself,'" he said.

Cannon said that while he appreciates all the advice, "to me, this isn't work, this is love." "Yesterday, it was a little easier than today because yesterday I was so laser-focused and even numb. I just knew I just had to get it done. Today, I'm a little torn. I'm a little confused. Because it's a hurting thing. I'm grieving. I feel guilty on so many levels," he continued.

The former "America's Got Talent" host also shared the final photo he took of his son. It showed Scott holding their son on the beach. Cannon shared the photo one day after he revealed the devastating news on Instagram. He dedicated Tuesday's episode of the show to the baby.

Cannon emotionally told his audience he wasn't sure how he was going to handle the day but after some time, he decided to push through.

"I was always taught, you go through it you grow through it, you keep pushing," he told his audience. "I'm here to show that I can fight through this, I'm feeling it, I'm vulnerable, I'm open. This is a special show dedicated to my beautiful son Zen."

The baby had hydrocephalus just a couple of months after he was born. The TV host said the bay underwent surgery but suffered "an interesting turn" during Thanksgiving and the "tumor began to grow a lot faster."