Angela ‘Big Ang’ Raiola Worries She Won’t Ever See Her Kids, Grandchildren Again In First 'Mob Wives' Episode Since Death

VH1 aired its first episode of "Mob Wives" since the death of cast member Angela "Big Ang" Raiola last week. The 55-year-old reality star, known on the show for being the peacemaker, died Feb. 21 in a New York hospital after a long battle with cancer.

In a clip from Wednesday's Season 6, episode 8 (via Us Weekly), Big Ang was seen preparing for surgery and expressed how scared she was to have the procedure done.

“Everything’s running through my head,” she said. “All I keep thinking about right now is my grandchildren, my kids. Am I ever going to see them again? I am the glue that holds this family together. My family, without me, would fall apart.”

Big Ang continued saying she wasn't "done here" yet because she wanted to be around for her grandchildren and there were still things she wanted to accomplish in her life.

“You know, I’ve done a lot in my life. I had a full life," she admitted. "But I’m not done here. I gotta be around, ‘cause I want to see my grandchildren.”

Following last night's episode, co-star Drita D’Avanzo apologized to fans for not live-tweeting saying that she wasn't ready to tune back into the show.

"I wasn’t up to watching the show tonight. Too soon," she wrote. "I did however RT tweets I liked! Thks 4 the support.”

VH1 stars Carla Facciolo and Renee Graziano did watch the show, telling fans that they were doing it to honor Big Ang.

"Tonights episode of #mobwives is going to be very hard to watch .. But in my [heart] of [heart's] I know #bigang would is saying 'the show must go on," Graziano wrote. "So in honor of our beloved #bigang please tune in to @vh1 at 8 for the last few episodes of #mobwives #thelaststand."