Carrie Underwood Opens Up About Miscarriages, God, And Moving Forward

Carrie Underwood, who is currently on her "Cry Pretty Tour 360," recently opened up about the struggles she faced after going through three miscarriages in less than two years in a series of interviews.

Last year, the "Before He Cheats" songstress openly discussed how the loss she had experienced colored many of her new songs. "I was still trying to do my job and put on a smiley happy face and be Carrie Underwood. And then I'd go home and fall apart," she told The Guardian.

"Of course you wonder if it's you, what am I doing wrong, or what have I done wrong," Underwood, 36, told People earlier this month, adding, "I remember having conversations with [husband] Mike [Fisher] trying to make sense of it all." She attributed a "heart-to-heart talk with God" as something that helped her begin to start processing what she had been through.

"... The miscarriages made me get real with God and say, 'Okay, I'm kind of giving up a little bit. If this isn't meant to happen, then I need to accept that and know that someday I'll understand why.'"

Shortly after that conversation, the "American Idol" alum found out that she was pregnant with her son Jacob, who is now 5 months old. Underwood also shares her 4-year-old son Isaiah with Fisher.

The reception Underwood has received for her decision to be transparent about her miscarriages has been "deeply moving," according to The Guardian, and Underwood acknowledged that the issue is something that people "don't really talk about."

Today, she says that singing songs about the trauma is therapeutic for her. "I will always mourn those children, those lives that were a shooting star, a breath of smoke, but I have Jacob, and he is incredible, he is the sweetest little baby. At the time it was awful, and it still hurts, but it's kind of like OK, I have this," she concluded.