Chris Brown Reveals He Thought About Suicide, Felt Like A ‘Monster’ After Rihanna Assault [VIDEO]

Chris Brown released the first look at his upcoming documentary, “Welcome to My Life.” In the almost three-minute clip, the 26-year-old pop star reflects on his career and private life, including the 2009 incident when he physically attacked then-girlfriend Rihanna ahead of the Grammy Awards.

Speaking on his romance with the “Work” singer, Brown says it was like “real-life rock stars.” “It was a fairytale,” he recalls.

The singer then addresses the assault, admitting that he once contemplated suicide after it happened. “I went from being on top of the world — No. 1 songs, being kind of like America’s sweetheart — to being public enemy No. 1.”

He continues, “I felt like a f--king monster. I was thinking about suicide and everything else. Wasn’t sleeping, I barely ate. I was just getting high.”

Brown’s mom, Joyce Hawkins, also addresses the incident, saying it was the “worst day” of her life. “I felt like I was going to lose my child,” she says in the video.

Despite his troubled past, the “Loyal” singer says his career is far from over and people shouldn’t doubt him. “If there was ever a doubt in your mind that Chris Brown was done, he was finished? I wouldn’t bet on it,” he declares.

According to Entertainment Weekly, the documentary will address Brown’s past as well as his rise from an average high school student to an international pop star. Stars such as Jennifer Lopez, Usher, Rita Ora, Terrence J and Mary J. Blige will make appearances in “Welcome To My Life.”

So far, Brown’s documentary doesn’t have a release date but the singer released the poster for it in March. See it below.

In April, radio personality Big Boy tweeted that he saw an advanced screening of the documentary and said he really enjoyed it. “The documentary @ChrisBrown has coming out in 2016 is about his life, his journey, what his life is like, what’s in his head,” his station, Real 92.3, wrote at the time. “@BigBoy says @ChrisBrown pulls off every layer in his documentary. Even about things we thought we saw and knew in public.”