Selena Gomez Shares Fear Of Not Conceiving Children Due To Bipolar Medication

Selena Gomez got candid about how her bipolar medication affected her physical health.

Gomez admitted in her interview with Rolling Stone that she was put on various medications following her bipolar diagnosis. The medicines eventually took a toll on her overall health and may have affected her ability to conceive.

"That's a very big, big, present thing in my life," she said about her infertility fears, "However I'm meant to have them, I will."

Gomez said she experienced bouts of psychosis before her diagnosis. After spending time in different treatment centers, she was diagnosed with bipolar disorder and given various medications.

She added that finding the right treatment for bipolar disorder became essential, and as a result of all the trial and error, she felt that she lost herself.

"It was just that I was gone," she explained. "There was no part of me that was there anymore."

Fortunately, the "Rare" singer eventually found a doctor who helped her find the medications that would work for her. The "Only Murders in the Building" star said she began feeling herself again.

"He really guided me," Gomez said. "But I had to detox, essentially, from the medications I was on. I had to learn how to remember certain words. I would forget where I was when we were talking. It took a lot of hard work for me to (a) accept that I was bipolar, but (b) learn how to deal with it because it wasn't going to go away."

Gomez is preparing for the release of her documentary "My Mind & Me," where she opened up about living with mental illness and lupus and how she found the silver lining.

"I don't have another reinvention story," she revealed. "I'm 30, and I'm going to go through moments in my life."

Gomez chose to see the bright side by reminding herself that she wouldn't be where she is today without the psychotic break and lupus. She added that without her health issues she would just be another "annoying entity that just wants to wear nice clothes all the time. I'm depressed thinking about who I would be."

Gomez's documentary outlines six years of her life, including her visits to her hometown in Texas, a press tour, a volunteer trip to Kenya and several visits to mental health facilities.

"After years in the limelight, Selena Gomez achieves unimaginable stardom," the film description read. "But just as she reaches a new peak, an unexpected turn pulls her into darkness. This uniquely raw and intimate documentary spans her six-year journey into a new light."

"Selena Gomez: My Mind & Me" premieres on Apple TV+ on Nov. 4.