‘Teen Mom OG’ Recap: Catelynn Baltierra’s Deep Dark Thoughts Revealed In Episode 10

It’s the end of the summer on “Teen Mom OG.” As some star’s kids headed back to school others soaked up the last few moments of the season. But it wasn’t all fun in the sun for cast members Amber Portwood, Catelynn Baltierra, Farrah Abraham and Maci Bookout. Find out what went down in Season 6, episode 10 of the MTV docuseries below!

CATELYNN

Continuing to struggle with her anxiety and depression, Catelynn shares she’s thinking about seeing her therapist and a psychiatrist recommended to her by “Teen Mom OG” reunion host Dr. Drew Pinsky. Catelynn also reveals she suffers from Paralytic Panic Attacks, attacks which make her unable to function when they occur, though she hasn’t had one since being home from treatment.

The next day, while visiting her mom April, Catelynn announces she’s having a panic attack and needs to leave. Catelynn leaves her daughter Nova with her mom. When she speaks to her husband Tyler Baltierra on the phone, she says she’s going to see a doctor the following day and is hoping to get a new medication.

The next we see Catelynn she’s rushing to her appointment, which she’s been waiting six months for, after accidentally sleeping in too late. After showing up nearly 20 minutes later, the doctor tells her she needs to reschedule and Catelynn leaves the building in tears. Catelynn says she feels like “nothing can go right, ever.” Find out what Tyler said about her missed appointment in the video below.

Catelynn goes on to see her regular therapist and says the panic attack at her mom’s house wasn’t as crippling as they used to be, which gives her hope. Catelynn says she was able to help herself out of the attack by focusing on the beauty around her instead of her thoughts before admitting a dark thought.

“Sometimes when I’m going through that I think life would be so much better if I wasn’t around,” she says after talking about her missed appointment. Catelynn goes on to say her mental illness is always getting in the way and wonders if Nova would be better off without her.

The therapist says Catelynn’s childhood issues are the root of everything and she should not to protect her mom because she doesn’t deserve it. She also tells Catelynn she’s already a better mom than April and the world “needs good” and needs her. “It would be broken if you left,” she says.

AMBER

Ahead of her daughter Leah’s first day of second-grade, Amber and Matt Baier take her back-to-school shopping at a trendy boutique. Matt says he almost “passed a stone” when the bill came out to $900.

As Leah’s first day of school gets closer, her dad Gary Shirley tells her to pick out an outfit. He slams the outfits Amber bought, saying they’re too heavy for Leah to wear in the summer. Leah ends up choosing clothes Gary’s wife Kristina purchased instead.

Gary tells Leah now that school is in session she’ll be staying at his house during the week and will be going to Amber’s house every other weekend. Leah says she’s OK with the arrangement. Meanwhile, Amber is shown telling the cameras she’ll talk to Gary about getting Leah more during the school year and hopes she will be able to pick her up from school.

When Amber and Matt meet Leah at her first day of school Amber remarks she’s “pissed off” that Leah wasn’t wearing one of the outfits they bought her. However, Gary tells Kristina there were no explosions during the drop off.

While Leah is at school, Kristina informs Gary that Leah has told her she’s upset that their daughter Emily gets more attention when she has to go to her mom’s house. Gary says it’s news to him and he’ll have to explain the situation to her. When Gary talks to Leah she says she “kind of” enjoys going to her mom’s house. He tells her that if she ever feels left out to tell him. Leah says she’d rather talk to Kristina about the issue.

MACI

After weeks of being MIA, Ryan Edwards calls Maci asking to spend time with their son Bentley. Maci is hesitant, but she and Taylor McKinney agree it will be good for Bentley.

When speaking to producers, Ryan says he’s expecting Bentley to go to his house on the weekend and will no longer be going to his parent’s house like he used to do. He adds that he’s not “thrilled” by the current situation with Bentley but is also not upset by it either.

Back at Maci’s home, Taylor tells his friend he treats Bentley the same way he treats his other two kids. He says he’s not trying to replace Ryan, he just doesn’t want Bentley to feel like a stepson.

When Bentley gets to Ryan’s house he surprises him with a puppy named Delta. Bentley says he’s excited to stay the night and the two go to a water park during the visit.

Maci says she hasn’t hear from Bentley and it’s good because he’s likely having a good time and he usually doesn’t want to hang out with Ryan. While Maci says it’s probably better now that Ryan is no longer having to share Bentley with his parents, she worries he’ll go MIA again.

FARRAH

Farrah continues to prep for the opening of her frozen yogurt shop, Froco. During a celebration dinner, Farrah tells her parents the girls she hired told her that had a great time training and referred her more potential employees.

When Farrah mentions her ex-boyfriend Simon will stop in to lend a hand, her mom Debra says she doesn’t think Simon realizes how big of a dream the business is to her. Farrah’s dad Michael goes on to bring up her sex “toy” line and Debra says the only people that judge her daughter are “ridiculous.” Farrah says she’ll leave the table if they keep talking about her past. Michael says his point is that they will continue to stand behind her no matter what.

Farrah and Simon immediately begin arguing when she picks him up from the airport. In the car she warns him not to get in her way, but fighting ensues at the store. When he doesn’t follow her instructions and she finds him in the back room eating, she gets angry. Farrah tells Simon that if one of her employees acted the way he did, they would be fired.

Back at the house, Simon says “time will tell” if he and Farrah become more than friends again. Farrah says that by the time Simon is ready she’ll be married with kids to someone else. Simon counters that he doesn’t think something as important as marriage should be rushed.

At the grand opening, Farrah lets her daughter Sophia help her cut the red ribbon to mark the opening. Farrah says she thinks the opening went well and she’s only received positive feedback. Farrah adds that her business feels like a baby and she’s proud of herself.