Wynonna Judd On Recreating The Judd's 1991 Farewell Concert: 'I'm Somewhere Between Hell And Hallelujah'

Wynonna Judd said recreating The Judd's 1991 Tour without her mom, Naomi Judd, was "painful as hell."

Wynonna has been having a hard time since her mom Naomi's death in April. On Wednesday, she spoke with Entertainment Tonight at CMA Awards in Nashville, Tennessee, where she got candid about how she really felt when she recreated The Judd's 1991 Farewell Tour for the tribute concert "The Judds: Love Is Alive" earlier this month.

"They say that when you pass on that all these things flash through your mind. I got out of the car and I thought about my mom telling me what she told me that night and just the memories," Wynonna told ET. "... It was the past and the present and the future all in one night. It's painful as hell. I'm writing a song with my husband where I talk about [how] I'm somewhere between hell and hallelujah."

Wynonna and Naomi had planned to embark on the tour together and it had been "really hard and therapeutic" for her.

"It's interesting, the fans, I trust them and they trust me. We grew up together. The fans loved me so much. I feel elevated if that makes sense. I feel held and supported and loved," she added. "The music just takes me and pulls me forward. Find something that you love so much that you'll do it no matter what shape you're in, that's what I do every night."

"I go in faith and just watch what happens and it's amazing," Wynonna added. "... I really don't know what I would do without music. I don't know that I could make it."

Naomi died by suicide after years of struggling with mental illness. Wynonna and her sister, Ashley, said in a statement following Naomi's death that they lost their mother to "the disease of mental health."

"She used a weapon. My mother used a firearm," Ashley said on "Good Morning America" in May. "So that's the piece of information we are very uncomfortable sharing."

Ashley was the one who discovered her mom when because she was at her house at the time.

"It was a mixed day. So I see my Mom and Pop every day when I'm home in Tennessee. So I was at the house visiting as I am every day. And Mom said to me, 'Will you stay with me?' and I said, 'Of course, I will,'" she recalled. "I went upstairs to let her know that [her] friend was there, and I discovered her. I have both grief and trauma from discovery."

Wynonna told ET her mom's death by self-inflicted gunshot wound was "beyond everything" she "could ever understand." The singer added that she has continued to "walk through it."

"I think it's courage just to show up and watch it and see what happens. I see people and I smile, and they love me, and I love them," she said. "... Grief and gratitude happen simultaneously on most days. I'm just an example of life after death. You just show up in whatever shape you're in. And here I am... I'm happy to be here. I'm happy to be anywhere."