Billie Eilish Blames Entertainment Industry For Turning 'Less Confident' Over The Years

Despite winning seven Grammy Awards, young musician Billie Eilish has revealed that she is no longer as confident as she was in the early years of her career "because of the entertainment industry."

The 19-year-old singer made a virtual appearance in the latest episode of “The Drew Barrymore Show” that aired on Sept. 16 to talk about her concert film, “Happier Than Ever: A Love Letter To Los Angeles." In the show, she admitted how the demands of the industry changed her ways as an artist.

A long-time fan of the "Bad Guy" artist, Barrymore raved at how Eilish can manage to be true to herself citing a part in the documentary that showed how the singer managed to finish a concert despite hurting her ankle.

Barrymore asked, “People don’t know how to usually be so honest. How do you just say it as it is? How do you know to do that?”

From being “free-spirited” to becoming “less confident,” the singer shared how she changed over the years because of the media. “You know I’ve always been very strong-willed and honest which I think is like a blessing and a curse,” Eilish told Barrymore in the interview.

“But the funny thing is that the older I’ve gotten the less confident I’ve gotten and it made me like almost…’coz I’ve watched it. I rewatched the doc like a few weeks ago. And it made me cry because I was thinking how like free-spirited I was; how open-minded I was. And then it’s like the media just like it tears it away from you. And it’s not fun right now,” she continued appearing teary-eyed in the end.

The show host seemed to connect with the young singer’s experience and quipped, “I know.”

“Believe me, I get it…and I have such faith that you will because even when you’re struggling, you’re aware of the struggle,” Barrymore said.

In the show, Barrymore also asked Eilish why she has an issue with the word “fans” as mentioned in the documentary. The “Ocean Eyes” artist replied: “I think that the reason that it was so weird to me was because one moment I was a fan and then suddenly I was looked at as this like higher up suddenly, even when I was 14.”

She continued: “It was so weird because I was like, ‘I am not even anyone.’ I just make music and these kids that I feel like I already know, suddenly like ‘oh they are Billie’s fans and then there is Billie.’ So that’s why it was so weird to me because I think of them like literally my skin, like part of me and like I how I get through stuff. They always have my back. They are fans just as much as I am a fan but that doesn’t make them any less than me or anybody else you know?”

Eilish recently made headlines after attending the 2021 Met Gala in a Marilyn Monroe-inspired look. With her peach-tulle Oscar de la Renta gown and blonde bob, the look was a fresh departure from the singer's usual getup characterized by monochromatic ensembles and baggy outfits.